pathetic

I am so pathetic. I can't get myself out of marasm. I feel tired - all the time. Today I am also feeling very sick. All day long - awful cramps in my stomach and you don't even want to know what else.
When is this going to end? I need sunshine. Maybe Africa? That would be good! Africa with all the sun in the world.
Maybe I would see some tigers and giraffes. Someone I know is there right now. How is it out there? Is it as beautiful as I am imagining it?

Rocks and drops

I can't make it out. Every little move hurts. I hurt.
I am a rock in the middle of a field full of rocks. I am a drop of rain after the storm kicked in.